The Model

My little Bro... joy of joys, the love of my life...... if a freaking poser! Now, this kid is not just photogenic, he is OBSESSED with the camera. and he doesn't just smile, he poses. so as i was driving to pick up the other bro from school the other day, in my rear view mirror i can see that Trae has found a pair of my glasses and is posing for himself in my rear view mirror. so i take my iPhone and start taking blind point and shoots at him. now let me inform the 5 people that maybe read this... i am on vocal rest and so i gave him ABSOLUTELY NO GUIDANCE in this. this is a shoot all about Trae. love him! heres some pics from my little models shoot....

Some times the good things are shadowed by the bad...

So my life has been a rollercoaster ride since coming home emotionally. As many of you know, for the last almost 4 months i have been having vocal trouble that has just gotten continuously worse. I just found out last week that i have a vocal nodule. A nodule, for those of you that dont know, is basically a callous on one side of my vocal chords. This typically means the end for many singers, but for me, my vocal nodule is very small, so i hope i can recover fully. Nevertheless, this has been a very hard week for me, i am starting to feel that hope is lost. Singing for me is what brings me joy, its what i love to do, and its my future. Sometimes its easy for me to think, "Why would my Heavenly Father do this to me?"i have just finally been accepted into the Music Dance Theatre major at BYU, and now your taking it all away? But i know that everything happens for a reason, and from trail comes strength. Or at least telling myself that i "know" that now i hope will help. I love my Heavenly Father, he must be doing this for a reason. i just hope that i will be able to sing as i used to.

So something good happened this week also....

i have been searching for a job for almost a month now with no success. not even one interview. as i was driving to pick up my brother from school one day, i drove by a dance studio and got this feeling that i should go in there. i thought "none of those places are hiring, theres no point", but i went anyways. when i walked in i immediately got offered a job! the dance studio also runs a theatre company, and they needed someone to run their theatre summer camps! and they hired me right on the spot after hearing my background. i am so excited to start a job doing something i love, and that will be good for me this summer.

So, even though life is not to good right now, at least things are happening that are helping me forget. :)

My Favorite Japanese Speaking, Anime Loving Past Roomie

Well... a little birdie told me the most fabulous funny story the other day....

Apparently Japgirl was at FHE at BYU the other day, and decided to share with all of her group how much she hated her roomie, and everything that I entail. One of the comments the birdie relayed to me was that she was so happy that she was moved out of the apartment that houses her NASTY roommate. wait.... excuse me? nasty? who was picking up your rotten blueberries off the floor and watched as you walked all over your imbedded raw hamburger in my rug? oh. thats right. that was me. who never ever cleaned the house once, even though they created the mess? oh, yes i remember. that was you. I just LOVED when you would leave your lougys in the sink and your giant hairballs in the shower. oh and my absolute favorite was your rotten tuna in the fridge and your dishes piled so high in the sink that they overflowed onto the counters. so who would be the nasty one as you so kindly put it? THAT WOULD BE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

oh, so also another little diddy Japgirl said was "Im so glad that i can room with my best friends and not someone i hate". well you know what Japgirl, thank heaven for that, have fun in your amine infested house without your personal maid. hahahahaha.

AMEN.